Let yourself be loved

At the end of one of my recent meditations I heard these words: “Let yourself be loved”. I realised in that moment that these words weren’t just meant for me, but also for so many of us who struggle with opening our hearts and letting love in.

There are those who have been betrayed and those who have been abused. Some of us have never really been taught how to love as nobody has shown them, nobody has really loved them unconditionally. We go through life desperately hoping to find love but are terrified to be let down, scared to let our guards down, open our hearts and totally fall in love with the other person. We are reluctant to show the other who we really are and far too often we do not even let ourselves see our true self. We hide behind self-created walls, we keep adding more and more layers and far too often pretend to be someone else in the hope of being accepted and loved. We deny our own desires and give up on our dreams hoping that by being who others want us to be we will find love and happiness. We are unwilling to take a closer look at our deep thoughts and feelings as they are too painful and difficult to deal with. We numb ourselves with alcohol, drugs, sex, cosmetic surgeries and many more in order not to feel. All of it is completely in vain as we can never deny who we really are.

All of us come from love, are surrounded by love and are love, but it is very easy to create a reality where fear, hate, anger, judgment and unworthiness are so prevalent that this reality seems like the only thing that really exists. When I heard the words “Let yourself be loved”, I saw how many of us are scared to open their hearts or are indifferent to the love that comes from Source. A lot of people simply have no idea of the amount of love that is directed towards them all the time. That love is always available to all of us. It never stops and it never differs. I still remember many years ago being shown in my meditation a scene from an attack in London where some people lost their lives. I wasn’t merely an observer, I was Source. The love that I felt was total and unconditional. And when I say unconditional, I mean unconditional. I felt the same amount of love, care and understanding towards victims and perpetrators. There was no blame, no judgment, just love. Tears kept running down my cheeks as the love that I felt was all encompassing and pure. It was not something that I was used to feeling or what I myself experienced from others in my life, at least not to that extent, strength and purity. I was shown how completely and unconditionally we are loved. No words could ever really explain the way I felt.

What are we so scared of? Why do we feel so unworthy when all of us are such amazing and unlimited divine beings of love and light? Why do we spend majority of our lives trying to please other people and desperately looking for love when everything that we need is already within us? Even when we are told the truth, even when we ourselves have mystical experiences, far too often we start to doubt. We doubt who we truly are and doubt the love that comes from Source.

We tend to cling and go back to what we know. It might be painful and feel awful, we might be really unhappy, but it is familiar. Unknown scares us. Source and Its unconditional love is not something that we can touch, hear, smell, taste or see. How can we prove it? It is surely much easier to feel pain and follow the masses. At least we are not different, we are not weird. Is it really easier though? In my opinion it definitely isn’t, especially in the long run.

You might not be able to perceive unconditional love with five senses, but you can train yourself to feel it in you. With meditation and time spent with yourself, you can start to hear the voice of Truth instead of mainly the voice of ego. When your intention is love and joy and you do not give up, you will succeed. There is no other way. All the talent, beauty and money in the world are nothing in comparison to person’s willingness and perseverance.

For years I thought I wasn’t good enough, but I was definitely good at blaming and judging, not only others, but mainly myself. I always wanted to be more loving and kind and I didn’t feel that I truly loved myself. It was a sad day for me when I realised that I didn’t really remember what true joy felt like. It didn’t mean that I was always unhappy, but I remembered that I used to be fun and I had fun. Life became a chore and I began taking it far too seriously. I wanted to start feeling joyful again and so every day for a long time I would do Dr Joe Dispenza's meditation “Synchronizing your energy to love” - https://drjoedispenza.com/product-details/Synchronizing%20Your%20Energy%3A%20To%20Love We want love because we want to feel joy and so every day I would connect to the feelings of love and joy. At first it felt awkward, the journey was like taking baby steps, there were days when it felt like I didn’t make much progress, but I was adamant. Slowly but surely I started noticing the change. I would feel joy without a reason, my heart opened more and the world seemed to be a more friendly, safe and enjoyable place to be. 

What made my heart open fully was joining a healing group. Giving love to another created the most profound changes within me. When you love another into life, life celebrates you, you are loved in return in ways that are indescribable. You obviously do not need to join a healing group to feel more love. Start practising giving from your heart, not because you have to, but because you want to. Every day practise sending love to others. The more you give, the more you will receive, the more your heart will open and the more love you are going to feel for yourself, for your life and for everybody else.

There is a wonderful Dr Joe's free meditation that is designed to open your heart and send love to another person that you can try called Golov 20. You can find it on YouTube at https://youtu.be/FZXVix4TNOI?si=sCzTekOSmKZ77c5_ The more you do it, the more your heart will open and the more love and joy you will start to feel.

It can be a slow process, so please do not try to rush it, do not feel guilty, do not judge yourself when it feels like you are not making much progress. Please remember that you have been thinking, feeling and behaving certain way for many years and so the change is not going to be sudden. It takes time for your heart to open, to start to trust, so please be gentle and understanding towards yourself, remember your intention and persevere with courage. Love yourself enough to do it. Be clear on what you want to achieve and have faith in yourself, in Source and in the process. You are loved beyond measure. Whatever I say will not be able to convey the amount, purity and strength of love that is always directed towards you. The only way to understand it and start feeling it is by going within.

What reality are you creating every day? Is it one of love, joy, peace, trust and freedom or one of fear, hate, lack, danger and unworthiness? Please remember that you are a very powerful creator of your life and every day is a fresh start. It is never too late to change the way you feel, think and behave and start to believe in yourself and the Truth within you. Do not wait for the right moment to come, do not think that you will start tomorrow, next week or next year. Begin today. Change starts with you, with your decision, your willingness and perseverance. You can do it. You are worthy of love 💜